Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Reality Bites

May 10th

Matilijas in full bloom, Dr. Suess bushes going crazy, arugula gone to seed...

I was going to write about reality. But something got in the way.

I was thinking, and have been thinking for awhile, about the nature of reality in our manufactured world.

So, it's 2006 and you build a Tudor style house in Southern California. A house designed a long, long time ago in merry old England. Think about Tudor. Perhaps there are timbers because that was an affordable way to build a house, since timber was everywhere and made great frames. The whole style of the house was based on the reality of the situation. Much of it was build out of need, economy, and some style. Yet, here we are, hundreds of years later, trying to protect the forests and spending a lot more money to build a house which doesn't fit any bill except that it is pretty and makes us all think of England.

When people come in they think the house is charming. It whisks them back to another era. I don't know about you, but that wasn't a particularly healthy era when it came to living past 40 years old. We are, in so many senses, living in this fantasyland and dreaming about a place we don't really know.

Those people, way back a when, lived more in reality. Hopefully they were looking at their surroundings and acting upon them. When all they had was mud, they made a mud house. Attractive? Maybe not particularly, but it did, and here's the only word I can think of to describe it, resonate. Resonated with the surroundings, with their economy, with their tribe who lived in like houses.

It's exactly the same with the garden. We put 40% of our water into lawns, which remain highly unused for the most part, then complain that the well is going dry. (Okay, maybe we don't complain, but if you read the papers, scientists and farmers are complaining.) Speaking of England, that's where the idea of a grass lawn comes from. A country whose trademark item is an umbrella.

Like I said, I was going to write about it (and in many ways, I guess I am), but walking back from yoga, exhausted, tired, and going by the Korean church with their dandelion garden, I thought, "Who the hell cares?"

Maybe not my best turn of phrase, but I get the point even today. All this complaining and worrying, is it really getting us anywhere? So my neighbor waters his lawn every single night and my other neighbor smothers his grass with pesticides and fertilizer, does it make them worse people? No, they're great people, I just happen to think both are misinformed.

Here's the problem: how do I continue to do what I think is right (in all areas of my life) and not get angry with someone else for their actions?

It's a question I can't really answer today.

But I believe that starting at the beginning, calming myself, working with my hands in the garden, has the answer. In the same way you don't decide to start your diet on the maddest crazy busiest shopping day before Christmas, trying to calm yourself while you're yelling at people just doesn't work.

It feels good.

But it doesn't work.

Reality Bites

May 10th

Matilijas in full bloom, Dr. Suess bushes going crazy, arugula gone to seed...

I was going to write about reality. But something got in the way.

I was thinking, and have been thinking for awhile, about the nature of reality in our manufactured world.

So, it's 2006 and you build a Tudor style house in Southern California. A house designed a long, long time ago in merry old England. Think about Tudor. Perhaps there are timbers because that was an affordable way to build a house, since timber was everywhere and made great frames. The whole style of the house was based on the reality of the situation. Much of it was build out of need, economy, and some style. Yet, here we are, hundreds of years later, trying to protect the forests and spending a lot more money to build a house which doesn't fit any bill except that it is pretty and makes us all think of England.

When people come in they think the house is charming. It whisks them back to another era. I don't know about you, but that wasn't a particularly healthy era when it came to living past 40 years old. We are, in so many senses, living in this fantasyland and dreaming about a place we don't really know.

Those people, way back a when, lived more in reality. Hopefully they were looking at their surroundings and acting upon them. When all they had was mud, they made a mud house. Attractive? Maybe not particularly, but it did, and here's the only word I can think of to describe it, resonate. Resonated with the surroundings, with their economy, with their tribe who lived in like houses.

It's exactly the same with the garden. We put 40% of our water into lawns, which remain highly unused for the most part, then complain that the well is going dry. (Okay, maybe we don't complain, but if you read the papers, scientists and farmers are complaining.) Speaking of England, that's where the idea of a grass lawn comes from. A country whose trademark item is an umbrella.

Like I said, I was going to write about it (and in many ways, I guess I am), but walking back from yoga, exhausted, tired, and going by the Korean church with their dandelion garden, I thought, "Who the hell cares?"

Maybe not my best turn of phrase, but I get the point even today. All this complaining and worrying, is it really getting us anywhere? So my neighbor waters his lawn every single night and my other neighbor smothers his grass with pesticides and fertilizer, does it make them worse people? No, they're great people, I just happen to think both are misinformed.

Here's the problem: how do I continue to do what I think is right (in all areas of my life) and not get angry with someone else for their actions?

It's a question I can't really answer today.

But I believe that starting at the beginning, calming myself, working with my hands in the garden, has the answer. In the same way you don't decide to start your diet on the maddest crazy busiest shopping day before Christmas, trying to calm yourself while you're yelling at people just doesn't work.

It feels good.

But it doesn't work.

Reality Bites

May 10th

Matilijas in full bloom, Dr. Suess bushes going crazy, arugula gone to seed...

I was going to write about reality. But something got in the way.

I was thinking, and have been thinking for awhile, about the nature of reality in our manufactured world.

So, it's 2006 and you build a Tudor style house in Southern California. A house designed a long, long time ago in merry old England. Think about Tudor. Perhaps there are timbers because that was an affordable way to build a house, since timber was everywhere and made great frames. The whole style of the house was based on the reality of the situation. Much of it was build out of need, economy, and some style. Yet, here we are, hundreds of years later, trying to protect the forests and spending a lot more money to build a house which doesn't fit any bill except that it is pretty and makes us all think of England.

When people come in they think the house is charming. It whisks them back to another era. I don't know about you, but that wasn't a particularly healthy era when it came to living past 40 years old. We are, in so many senses, living in this fantasyland and dreaming about a place we don't really know.

Those people, way back a when, lived more in reality. Hopefully they were looking at their surroundings and acting upon them. When all they had was mud, they made a mud house. Attractive? Maybe not particularly, but it did, and here's the only word I can think of to describe it, resonate. Resonated with the surroundings, with their economy, with their tribe who lived in like houses.

It's exactly the same with the garden. We put 40% of our water into lawns, which remain highly unused for the most part, then complain that the well is going dry. (Okay, maybe we don't complain, but if you read the papers, scientists and farmers are complaining.) Speaking of England, that's where the idea of a grass lawn comes from. A country whose trademark item is an umbrella.

Like I said, I was going to write about it (and in many ways, I guess I am), but walking back from yoga, exhausted, tired, and going by the Korean church with their dandelion garden, I thought, "Who the hell cares?"

Maybe not my best turn of phrase, but I get the point even today. All this complaining and worrying, is it really getting us anywhere? So my neighbor waters his lawn every single night and my other neighbor smothers his grass with pesticides and fertilizer, does it make them worse people? No, they're great people, I just happen to think both are misinformed.

Here's the problem: how do I continue to do what I think is right (in all areas of my life) and not get angry with someone else for their actions?

It's a question I can't really answer today.

But I believe that starting at the beginning, calming myself, working with my hands in the garden, has the answer. In the same way you don't decide to start your diet on the maddest crazy busiest shopping day before Christmas, trying to calm yourself while you're yelling at people just doesn't work.

It feels good.

But it doesn't work.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Love Lies Bleeding in my Hands

May 1st

May Day.

The Matillija poppies have risen their full 8 foot height and are just beginning to open in their "dancer's pose", as Wendy likes to call it, or "fried egg" pose, as I do. Love-in-a-Mist, a flower from the time when they named them beautifully (think Love-Lies-Bleeding or Fireman's Britches) cluster around what is left of an ancient cactus garden I have yet to rip out. That area, so hot, hot in the summer time you couldn't walk across it, was home to so many borage plants, it's hard to believe I only have one left.

Just thinking about them reminds me how charmed I was when we moved into this house. By the late-20's era, by my new love, by this massive garden that had gone to seed after one of the men withered and passed away from AIDS. I remember sun, heat, and opportunity. At that time I was still hoping to write for television or movies and did not have children.

It's easier to look back, right? To see everything was much easier then? We forget so much. I was in emotional pain then and had trouble with direction in my life. More trouble than now, if you can believe it.

This house has so much history, built by a surgeon, lived in by a landscape architect. We're only the third owners in all those years. With all the terrible things that have gone on around here (and I believe I've only heard more since joining the Neighborhood Watch Program), I still feel so rooted historically to this house.

I was going to write today about what is real and what is not, something that's been on my mind since I worked at Disney and was intrigued by the arguments against the Disneyfication of Fill-in-the-Blank (New York, LA, Paris, the world), but it doesn't feel like that kind of day.

Yesterday was tiring and uplifting in the garden. The lawn hadn't been mowed in two weeks and Mark, my neighbor, just got his new lawn in. And is one of those people who picks up every leaf that falls. Sharp contrast to the people who used to rent the place. I hate to take part in competition, but there's nothing that quickens your game as much as someone who is excellent at what they do.

I finally ripped out two large lavender bushes and an enormous fortnight lilly that had taken over part of my front walk. I'd spend the last four years fighting them, continually cutting them back, only to have them return with a vengeance. Maybe taking over my own garden instead of having someone else do it for me has someone empowered me, because I ripped both out without much pity, then stood back and saw how good it looked. I stopped and tried to think why I was so concerned about ripping them out before. There is a great possibility they were part of my "If it's green, it stays" policy. We'd lost so many plants over the years, I was hesitant to clear something out that was actually doing well. No one likes a hole in a garden and what are the chances whatever you put there will do well? (The answer to that is 60/40.)

I did, however, take the time to divide the fortnight lilly into 10 smaller plants and put them out back, which is something that still amazes me to no end.

The thing that always surprises me in regards to yard work, is where my interests lie. There is nothing so enjoyable as sitting down with a catalog and picking out new plants and nothing so disheartening as seeing those plants or seeds fail to grow, get eaten, or downright perish.

But with all the big work putting in walkways, clearing out brush, dividing perennials, nothing comes close to the act of solitude known as weeding. You can be amazed through all your other big actions in the garden, but I feel you can only enjoy God's presence or "the big picture" in the small act of getting your face ten inches from the soil and picking out a weed.

And yes, I don't think I did enough weeding yesterday.

As luck would have it, there's still time tonight.