Saturday, March 04, 2006

Rainy Days and Saturdays

March 4, 2006

The rains are just finishing here today. People in Southern California, the ones who live in the city anyway, look at rain as an inconvenience. Maybe all people in the suburbs and cities around the country do. As if the weather was here for them, to help them go about their days of shopping, soccer practice, golfing, or whatnot. I think it’s one of the beautiful things gardening taught me about the nature of weather and its intimate connection with the growing things on the planet. Without rain, the trees in the forest would never grow, nor the wild berries that feed the bears. It may sound corny, but when my corner of the world gets rain I know intimately about the water percolating down through the soil and each plant bringing in the life-giving nectar. Listen to me, waxing poetic about the rain.

It’s just that in my mind before rain was entwined with bad feelings like loneliness and depression. I imagined Karen Carpenter standing with an umbrella in my front yard singing to herself “Rainy Days and Mondays always get me down”.

Perhaps, too, that our lives are so busy as adults that it’s nice for once to take a break and sit inside. Since there are so few bad weather days here, it’s easy to hear your mother still yelling, “Go outside, it’s a beautiful day.” Going to a movie during a sunny afternoon here is still one of the few guilty pleasures I still love.

Ryan and I have gotten out the seed growing tray and have been trying to germinate some old seeds that the garden store guy gave us last time we were there. They hadn’t taken off all last week so I thought they needed the warmth of being inside. Ryan was very excited yesterday when he showed me the sprouts. Unfortunately they were sprouts of various kinds of mushrooms whose spores must’ve been in the soil mixture. We’re really not the best seed growers. In fact, I’m always surprised at how brown our thumbs are. Sometimes I think I’m just lazy because I don’t want to do all the work so many other gardeners do: the endless watering, daily checking on seeds, fertilizing, double-digging, and mulching. We do some of that, but really we kind of let things fend for themselves and consider it a huge bonus when we get lots of lettuce or see our Spanish lavender blooming.

I’m excited whenever I see a plant with the description Thrives on Neglect.

I guess I swing back and forth in my heart on what a gardener really is. Which is what neurotics do really well. The one thing I can confirm is somehow both our children, Ryan especially, have an appreciation of nature I never had as a child. They are excited, as they should be, when they go pick lettuce for us. Though kids with massive gardens in their back yards may dread going out, that we have just a taste of it brings a sense of wonder which is enough, I think, for city kids.

We will never be great gardeners. That’s just a fact (unless, of course, Ryan suddenly decides when he is older to raise his own vegetables and flowers). We will never be leaving bagfuls of zucchini and tomatoes on our neighbors porches then run away into the night, as we barely grow enough for ourselves.

I think it’s okay we still experience the awe of plants growing and the it drives us out, farther out, to the deserts, the forest, and the ocean. And while others are hell bent on taming it with their noisy, obnoxious machinery, that maybe we will have the patience to sit quietly for a minute or two and fully enjoy God’s bounty and gifts to us.